Thriving in a least empowering environment is one of the hardest things to do. Once again, I am learning that social skills (read: being part of the ingroup) trump everything. As an introvert who has a penchant for honesty (read: tell it like it is type of girl), I have a hard time finding my place in groups where personality seems to matter more than character or integrity.
I find it least empowering when any or all of these are present:
- Subjective judgments prevail over objective observations.
- Inputs are disregarded not because they are invalid but because of personal biases on the person giving them.
- Fairness is weak at best.
- Groupthink and the risk of becoming an outcast when providing ideas that contradict the views of the majority.
- Inability to own up to mistakes.
- Excuses instead of accountability.
- Lack of transparency.
I think the only way to survive in this kind of environment without further eroding my self-belief and confidence is to just let everything slide. I just hope that integrity will prevail. All I ask is the objectivity and fairness to judge my progress. And that it will not be hindered by existing biases. Frankly, I have almost given up on that.